Procrastination is the Name of the Game

Procrastination is my enemy.  I know it but I keep inviting him in as if he were my closest friend.  I think I do it out of fear; fear that I am not smart enough, experienced enough, talented enough, liked enough or just good enough in general.  I am a master at excuses.

Time after time I find my back up against the wall forced to rush through something or not doing something at all because of these petty little fears.  My mile long to-do list consists mostly of projects I have started and then got scared that I was not capable of doing this project properly and stopped.  I usually blame my lack of ability to complete a project to my ADHD but since I have struggled with this since I was a child, I have gotten pretty good at keeping it (almost, not completely) under control.

Presently Illinois Internal Revenue is on my back.  I have always done my tax returns myself.  This year I decided to use Turbo Tax and of course I waited until the last minute.  I had a hell of a time with some of the questions it asked but finally completed it by the due date.  I checked answers on the computer but not on the forms themselves.  Big mistake. 

Three weeks ago Illinois sent me a statement saying my return was wrong and I owe them an additional $346.  Damn!  I dug my copies out and I couldn't believe some of the numbers on the form.  Why hadn't I looked it over better before mailing it?  Turbo Tax is suppose to be the expert, not me, so why should I?  Now I am going to have to check the numbers on my IRS tax return and completely redo my Illinois form.

As I said, I have had this info for three weeks.  Guess I had better stop procrastinating and get to work.