Complaining

Complaining is easy, even when compared with the challenges of creating a plan for positive change in ones life.  Fact is, complaining can be quite fun when among good girlfriends.  We seem to feed on each others difficulties in life.

I really don't want to be a bellyacher.  The whiners of the group can put a dark cloud over everybodies party.  It is contagious. 

So how do I get back on that positive sound track?  When it comes time to specify the fix I get fuzzy.  Time to get out my happy paint brush and paint my life with broad strokes of color with statements like "I just want passion in my life", "I want to be loved, healthy, yadda, yadda, yadda."  

Give me something that makes me happy.   Something like my day with my girlfriend Kathy.  We had so much fun just laughing and talking and playing with her precious granddaughter, Peyton.

There is no quick fix, no magical pill we can take.  This crab ass is going to have to make the changes herself.  After my super time with Kathy yesterday I think I might just have an idea to change my blue into joyous red.  Get out of this house and spend time with friends.  I've been watching too much TV and reading too many books.  Time to start living again.