Always Settle for More

Sometimes I live my life to its fullest and then there are days when nothing truly lights me up inside.  I then become a settler.  I except.  I concede. I survive.  Is that all I have to hope for?  To just survive?  Where and how have I settled for less instead of more?

I've always been a people pleaser.  I guess that comes from sharing the honor of being the first born with my twin sister and always feeling a responsibility to my four younger siblings. When I was a young adult I heard others talk about time to settle down but I never was wild and free.  The wildest thing I ever did was find myself pregnant my first year of college.  Even though I knew that it was a mistake I did the right thing and married the father of the baby thus beginning a life of settling for less rather than more.

I believe it is never too late.  Time to start thinking about what I can settle for.

Here's my list so far:

More fun loving friends who accept me flawed as I may be
More walks on a sunny beach, wooded avenue and hikes in the woods and hills
More laughter .... lots more laughter
More playing cards with Dad
More rides in a convertible, top down, hands in the air yelling "Yeehaw!"
More road trips
More chai tea latte
More silly string
More adventure
More chocolate
More good books
More self indulgent vacations

I want to taste what life offers me, swallow what nourishes me, and grow from it all.  I want more!