I am not a failure- well not completely

Wow, it took me two days but I found my new blog.  This is turning out to be much more difficult than I had expected.  I actually realize it is going to be difficult for me.  But I have to give myself credit for perseverance.  As much as I wanted to give up and start a new one, I knew I had to figure this out or I would continue to make the same mistake.

Things happen for a reason.  I was breaking down and thinking about spending more time with Darrell.  Maybe even eventually asking him to marry me but not for a couple of years.  Then Darrell calls and says he won't be home for a couple more hours.  Go home or stay, or run errands, whatever I need to do. So I'm watching the birds and trying to decide what to do when Kathy texts me saying she won't be exercising with me.  Oh Bother, now what?  That is when I realize I can't wait around for others to lead me.  I have things I want to do so get off my lazy butt and do it.  I am going to Les' house and pick up rocks in the rain to paint on.  Go to GNC for vitamins, etc.  Then Denise Tellor called to say Amanda is engage.  Now I also have a wedding to help plan.  I also must get on the Internet to look for work from home.  -- So Darrell you will just have to wait.  Sorry!

Lately I have been experiencing some depression.  Nothing serious.  I have been off my depression meds for several months - probably a year.  Until recently I have had no problems.  It is probably being brought on by the pressure of Darrell wanting me to return his love.  I must be a lot like his dear departed wife who he loved with his whole heart for 40 years.  He wants that same relationship with me.  Since my personality is much like her I am falling right into her shoes.  That would be great but I am still mourning the loss of my dear Les.  Darrell is nothing like Les.  That may be good.  Darrell is probably good for me but I just can't seem to get to that place in my relationship with him.

So here is a little poem I wrote about me.

Life is Short
So go ahead
Look Silly
Dance and sing in the rain.
Bask in the Sunshine
Go Barefoot
Feel the grass underfoot
Be Bold
Walk barefoot through the mud
Fee mud ooze between your toes
Find your Inner Child
Spend the day with her.
She is fun and so are You!

Now off I am going o be bold and paint some funny wine glasses.  Poor Debbie.  I have decided on a design for her.  Hope she has a good sense of humor.